Abulia

So with the definition of decoherence brought some input from other sources. Thanks Deb.

a·bu·li·a or a·bou·li·a (-bl-, -by-)n.
Loss or impairment of the ability to make decisions or act independently

I definately find myself in this state many times..staring at the fork in road till i get hit from behind. %-P Use it wisely and try not to live it too much.

Malaise

So the title today generally describes how I feel right now. Things are kinda slow right now. Work, home everything. I'm just trying to get things going. I don't know why it has become like this. The tendancy is to blame the weather and say my aversion to cold is driving this feeling. But truth be told i don't know.

The good thing that did happen yesterday is that I was able to "speak via IM to my brother who lives in Ghana. It was nice cause we don't speak much. There is no animosity and I can't really totally blame distance it's just the nature of th erelationship. That being said we always have good conversations when we do speak. I have to say he's responsible for one of the best memories in my life. A couple of years ago he was living in london and I went to visit him. We found out we support the same football team, the MIGHTY MIGHTY GUNNERS: Arsenal!! So during my 4 day visit we went to their stadium Highbury and watched a match. Fantastic!!! Living in the states i keep up through the internet and occasional trips to english/irish pubs in the area. So to witness the game live was just amazing.

Also I was able to do some reading yesterday. Which always makes me feel good. I don't really output alot but i love to consume. And books have alwasy been my favourite medium though currently i am very picky with what I'll read. When I was younger I would read everything. 3-4 books at a time. Anyway i previewed(read the first chapter) of 2 books i've been looking forward to reading and was quite pleased. The books are "Ecology of Commerce" by Paul Hawken , and "Letters to the Young Contrarian" by Richard Hitchens.

The first one is a very important read. i think it's a way for the world to move forward especially those in lesser developed nations. Especially to stop the blind following of western practices that lead to nothing but destruction of the natural resources and isolates wealth to a small percentage of the population.

The second one is very informative. It's got alot of historical and philosophical references in a very compact read. Something to clear the mind in the face of media idiocy from both sides. They are both pretty small books but packed with goodness so I recommend them. I'm picking them up on friday when I can exercise my discount.

Well that's it for me. Crawling slowly towards inspiration. Until then...


you know who

Weekend Recap

So it was a strange weekend. First I didn't blog like i wanted but I'm not bothered too much by that. I refer to the old Digable Planet's song Sundays: " Sundays to relax, Sundays to Relax" and I actually take saturdays too, usually. However this weekend was busier than usual.

Spent some time Ikea and got some great deals. And regardless of what other designers say( there's been a recent discussion on my favorite design site, Core77 ,about the merits of their stores and designs) They provide a service. Expecially when that service means saving me money. No it's not about buying something that will last a lifetime but need something for the temporary and to start up then yeah it's the place to go. Though they really need a recycling policy like computer manufacturers are starting to do. Reclaim and recycle.

Anyway so i spent a lot of time putting stuff together. Lots of fun. reminds me sometime why I became a mechanical engineer in the first place: LEGOS!!! you know you love them.

Sunday was more of the same though it started way early playing soccer with some of my fellow country men. They have a sunday morning ritual and my cousin comes and picks me up and we go and then I make a mad dash back in the afternoon so I can go to church. We have an evening service so it's easy to get things done during the day and go in the evening. But we are moving soon and changing the time so I'll have to see how that works.

It was good to go though. Spiritually speaking I've been a bit blocked lately. I believe in God obviously and that we have a personal relationship with him. So after a couple of weeks of realy feeling connected i then had a couple of weeks where my mind was really not where I wanted it..but it allowed me to think about some things differently. Sometimes we get very caught up in doing, get this done, do this, kinda of running around. It's good but not the end all be all and so though i was being productive i felt like i wasn't in touch. So yesterday was good because i was able to feel his presence and be comforted.

The week ahead is an anomoly to me. I'm not sure what i want or have to do. The only thing in my mind right now is to try and resurrect one of my previous attempts at sponsorship. However I'm not looking forward to writing the letter cause it has to be in french and currently I'm going to need some help. My french is crap right now and I want this letter to spark so I'l be enlisting some help. Well I've more than spoken enough today so take it easy all. And as usual I'd love to hear your comments.

KotoKo

ps. Good Luck to two of my friend starting their law careers today!!!