Black in Chi

So here's the rant about being a blackman in chicago. i basically had a discussion with one of my best friends about the frustration i feel walkin the streets here. I can't seem to walk 10 feet without a white woman grabbing her purse, puttin her head down and tripling her speed. I've tried not to notice it..and tried to elevate my mind but it's frustrating. Worse is even the people who see me every morning on the train. Who commute with me behave like, ad it's not just woman either. Though it's more rae men also behave liek ths and i have to wonder what's giong on. It's not complete i only started archiving after teh discussion had begun but what i got was still good.

teef1 (4:32:43 PM): Yeah. Not good
asante_kofi (4:33:14 PM): i have to admit ..i'm getting angrier by the day here in chicago
asante_kofi (4:33:48 PM): and i wodner if there is refuge anywhere
asante_kofi (4:34:15 PM): i asked jay if this was a chicago thing by saying your city and he basically said that this was also happening in NYC
asante_kofi (4:34:33 PM): it cant be as bad but still
teef1 (4:34:51 PM): I can't say that it happens much to me. Maybe I don't notice. Maybe they're not threatened because I'm short. Don't know.
asante_kofi (4:35:02 PM): i'm tired of seeing it and tired of noticing it..i try to elevate my mind but it only lasts abouta week
asante_kofi (4:35:37 PM): yeah well you have aspiritual glow bruce that beats all understanding
asante_kofi (4:35:54 PM): remember that time we went to church
asante_kofi (4:36:17 PM): and that guy just had to tell you he felt your spirit..almos like he could see your aura
teef1 (4:36:19 PM): Soul Glow?
asante_kofi (4:36:26 PM): word
teef1 (4:36:27 PM): Yeah, I thought that was weird
asante_kofi (4:37:04 PM): maybe it's cause you're light skinnenedteef1 (4:37:28 PM): I'm not that light.
teef1 (4:37:34 PM): I'm kinda medium
asante_kofi (4:37:39 PM): lighter than meteef1 (4:38:00 PM): Very true
teef1 (4:38:04 PM): That could have something to do with it
asante_kofi (4:38:37 PM): i don't know...it's getting to the point where i'm about to start callin ppl racists to their face
asante_kofi (4:38:46 PM): which of course is a self fulfilling prophecy
teef1 (4:38:49 PM): That's not cool, man
teef1 (4:38:51 PM): Exactly
asante_kofi (4:38:51 PM): and gets me nowhere
asante_kofi (4:39:05 PM): yeah i just say things under my breath loud enough for them to hear it
asante_kofi (4:39:18 PM): like" keep racism alive"
teef1 (4:39:25 PM): You need to show them a positive attitude, no matter what
teef1 (4:39:32 PM): Wear them down
asante_kofi (4:39:41 PM): my sister laughs at that one
teef1 (4:39:51 PM): Like Romans says, overcome evil with good.
asante_kofi (4:39:55 PM): yeah i know man.you kow me..i have een tolerant for a long time
asante_kofi (4:40:00 PM): but lately i am tired
teef1 (4:40:06 PM): In so doing, you heap coals of fire on their head
asante_kofi (4:41:55 PM): true..and i dont know when it changed in me
asante_kofi (4:42:00 PM): but i know it started in chicago
asante_kofi (4:42:35 PM): started i mean
teef1 (4:42:45 PM): http://www.eonline.com/Celebs/PartyGirl/Gallery2004/041028b.html
teef1 (4:42:49 PM): Here man, feel better
asante_kofi (4:43:25 PM): wow..yeah man
asante_kofi (4:43:54 PM): 200 the year when the top three hottest women were blackteef1 (4:44:00 PM):
asante_kofi (4:44:09 PM): beyonce undisputed hottest woman in music
asante_kofi (4:44:21 PM): halle berry undisputed hottest woman in film
asante_kofi (4:44:28 PM): and oprah owns television
asante_kofi (4:44:48 PM): this calls for a girlfriends marathon
teef1 (4:45:04 PM): Word
teef1 (4:45:06 PM):
asante_kofi (4:45:07 PM): even if i can't stand beyonce talkin
teef1 (4:45:23 PM): But, she can sing
asante_kofi (4:45:31 PM): true,. but she ain't jill scot

Now i know that racism exists everywhere and even when i get to engladn i'll have to deal with it but they way it manifests here is mayeb the thing i'm bothered with. I am a peopel watcher. I love walking down the streets taking in humanity. As a designer that's part of my makeup. And to not even be able to walk freely down the street really bothers me alot. But like my friend says i have to rise above. If you pray, then pray for me on this issue cause it's something that i have to deal with everyday.