a little late but here goes

So tuesday morning ae always a waste of time for me. I get caught up in a chatroom connected to an internet radio station and get completely distracted. Today wasn't too different. It doesn't always happen but it does happen.

Last night I was gonna post an addition to yesterday's post but it didn't happen. I ike the Yankees last night got a bit of a stomach punch connected to yesterdays post. so i was not in the best mood yesterday. Couldn't even work out well. Hopefully today will yield better cause I have some goals that need to be met by the end of the month. I can't ever be fat..but i had been letting myself go a little and had developed a bit of a spare tricycle tire around my mid-drift so i'm working hard to eliminate it and fix up look sharp.

I must admit my mind is a little gone today. I want to write but it's not coming easily. Lately I have been really thinking about myself as a designer and what i want to acheive and how to get there. I'm aslo thinking that maybe God gave me this extra year so i can properly prepare for the next year. I've been making a list of things I need to do and learn so I can get myself ready for school. When I get to london i don't wnat to be lacking. I just want to be able to produce things..so it doesn't slow down what I can learn.

I'm also realizing that when i was younger i was good. I was real good...i had no confidence in my skills and ability you know but looking back at how fast i could learn and how well i could get things on paper..i must have had my head up my a** not to see where i belonged. Yet i know that the path i have taken still helps me and actually adds an extra edge. So if you pray, pray for me and that i be properly directed and keep my focus in the right place.

right now i'm chatting to my brother in ghana simultaneously and we are discussing a few thingss, my father, and how i never come to ghana like i say. It's not a cheap ticket and i've been limited at times but hopefully soon. Anyway our main topic of discussion has been our father.

My father has Parkinson's disease. It's very mild and he's not too slowed down..but still has problems with rigidity and takes a lot of medicine. We think he should move back to ghana because life for him would be better. But he's a bit stubborn and has a few excuses which we are not sure are valid. He's still employable we feel and has a lot of knowledge and experience that would help in a developing country like Ghana. Plus he would be well taken care of. House and Car and the like..plus the weather is much better. The consolation at the moment is that we've gotten him thinking.

That's gonna be it for me now. My mind isn't here and I haven't put out anything quality.

Carrots,

Kotoko